Self Drained

I just wanted to be friends with them I don't know what I did And I pushed them away I just wanted to be friends with them I guess now I'm alone again Now They're all gone again In my home I feel alone In my home Feels so good to feel again Feel self drained I will be strong for myself No to pretend or to be in pain again I will try but I'm not sure, If I can If I can escape or just be Stuck again In a light Self pressed to feel self drained Pain Pain So good to feel again