All This 2 Say

I've been trying to hide that i am still losing my mind Thought that someday I would find what I can't feel As appealing as that sounds, therapy ain't lost and found And it can run you in the ground to learn the truth That no one else can do the work but you All of this to say i'm fucking losing it again And I've been trying to pretend That I don't want to meet my end (no no no) All of this to say i'm sorry I can't fix my face I know I give it all away That I can feel every mistake If I could be, I would be okay As you all can see, I'm still grasping desperately At what's left of my sanity, but I'm still here (I'm still her) It might not look like much, and it sure feels like not enough And I am losing touch with my reality But at least the one who's feeling it still feels like me All of this to say i'm fucking losing it again And I've been trying to pretend That I don't want to meet my end All of this to say i'm sorry I can't fix my face I know I give it all away That I can feel every mistake If I could be, I would be okay I know that I'm better than when this happened before But I still feel like a failure when I'm weeping on the floor Because I paid so much money not to do this anymore But recovery's not linear, so I'll see you all again I'm sure All of this to say i'm fucking losing it again And I've been trying to pretend That I don't want to meet my end All of this to say i'm sorry I can't fix my face I know I give it all away That I can feel every mistake If I could be, I would be okay If I could be, I would be okay