if i was dead

I know you think the worst of me And you're right for once I'm no good I'm bad I'm cruel I'm sick in my head But you don't understand (And you never will) Huh huh oh Even when you're smiling up at me I wish you'd close your eyes And hate me for what I am And what I've done Cause when I'm alone I don't think of you I just get stuck in my head And I start to wonder If you'd love me if I was dead If I was dead You think that I'm the bad guy And maybe you're right But those voices They aren't sleepless at night They're the ones who like to see me in pain So I try to escape And your number just so happens to be one call away Even when you're smiling up at me I wish you'd close your eyes And hate me for what I am And what I've done Cause when I'm alone I don't think of you I just get stuck in my head And I start to wonder If you'd love me if I was dead If I was dead If I was dead Would you finally love me If I was dead Would I still be the bad guy If I was dead Would you finally love me If I was dead Would I still be the bad guy If I was dead Hmmm If I was dead Oh if I was dead If I was dead (If I was dead) Would you finally love me (Love me)