Drown (#metoo)

I tried to wash off your kisses I tried to drown out your voice Tried not to relive the memory Seems like I don't have a choice I tried erasing your fingers I tried to smoke out your scent Cause I don't want to remember You made sure I couldn't forget I tried to wash off your kisses I scrubbed my neck til' it bled I've got invisible bruises That I still feel in my head I tried erasing your touches Clean out the inside of me But I can still find your fingerprints On every freckle they weren't supposed to see And I'm drowning in a river of you Suck me back into the tide There's nothing I can do And I can't breathe But I can't break through The surface nowhere to be found I can't determine up or down No one nearby to hear a sound Of where you left me to drown I tried to wash off your kisses By letting him kiss me too Thought I could repaint the memory Cover the remnants of you I tried erasing your fingers I cried while he held me down And while alarm bells rang in my head I'm growing more and more numb to the sound While I'm gasping in a river of you Scarcely beating past the rocks I'm bruising myself too And I can't breathe But I can't break through The surface nowhere to be found I can't determine up or down No one nearby to hear a sound So I guess I'll just drown I dream of breaking your face in Imagine bashing your brain Won't be found guilty of murder Just redistributing pain I'll scream the darkest of anger The way I couldn't scream then I'll take back all of my power Then I'll replay it again and again And I'll strike back 'gainst the tide of you Swimming blindly towards a light There's nothing else to do And I can't breathe But I will break through I won't give up on being found The scarring only slowed me down And the world will listen to the sound Of where you left me to drown