let you down

I'm getting drunk again just to make you interesting Didn't know all this time you'd been giving so little while I was giving everything The five star reviews are in but I'm getting tired of performing I stand on this pedestal spinning around Laughing mouth open while you're on the ground Wondering when I can get down And hoping I won't let you down I'm bringing it out in him and he's never felt so seen I know I don't love him, but he thinks that he loves me And I thought that might be fine but I'm starting to keep what's always been mine Because I stand on the pedestal spinning around Laughing mouth open while you're on the ground Wondering when I can get down And hoping I won't let you down Am I a con or am I the one being fooled by their jokes, 'cause they're all in on one Dopamine drip from my brain You get my joy and I just get drained Am I dramatic or telling the truth Why is baring it all cold and naked with you For every last layer I shed You get more seen and I get more sad But I stand on the pedestal spinning around Laughing mouth open while you're on the ground Wondering when I can get down And hoping I won't let you down