Dark Indulgence

Test my heart and my mind Beyond my strength Yet I'll heal in time Split between My desires The darkest indulgence feeds my fires l Numb to this feeling of pain Repressing its power It feels all the same Yearning for freedom of something more Impulsive in my rawest form Why do I even try anymore Not like I haven't fucked my life up once before Is my life a fucked up metaphor Why do I even try anymore Can't help looking inward at myself As this patterns start to repeat itself The same mistakes I've made before Wishing they were easier to ignore Easier to ignore Wishing it was easier to ignore Why do I even try anymore It's not like I haven't fucked my life up once before Is my life a fucked up metaphor Why do I even try anymore