Best or Worst?

I'm scared to be happy 'Cause what if all these beautiful memories Only turn to nightmares? It's not fair You're not there to wake me up It's funny how in my mind I can sabotage a good time But with you I'm trying hard to get it right You love me on my worst days And you've seen me in a good place But sometimes my head just flies to outer space 'Cause you're here right now so why am I afraid? I don't know why I'm this way I'm scared to be happy 'Cause what if all these beautiful memories Only turn to nightmares? It's not fair You're not thеre to wake me up I'm scarеd to be lonely 'Cause what if no one else ever holds me The way that I'm used to, like you do? 'Cause you are the love I need I guess I'm scared That you could be the worst or the best thing that happened to me You can tell me that you'll never leave But I'm so bad with rationality 'Cause sometimes the broken part of me believes That you won't stay for all of me I'm scared to be happy 'Cause what if all these beautiful memories Only turn to nightmares? It's not fair You're not there to wake me up I'm scared to be lonely 'Cause what if no one else ever holds me The way that I'm used to, like you do? 'Cause you are the love I need I guess I'm scared That you could be the worst or the best thing that happened to me That happened to me I hate that I think I like that So why can't I just relax? I'm scared to be happy 'Cause what if all these beautiful memories Only turn to nightmares? It's not fair You are the love I need And I guess I'm scared That you could be the worst or the best thing that happened to me