Don't Wanna Play Anyone This Song

I wanna be a pretty girl Don’t wanna be so obsessive I don’t wanna write another song about you I wanna be the belle of the ball But I don’t wanna want it at all I don’t wanna wonder if you’ve noticed that I gained a little weight And oh, isn’t it a cruel twist of fate All the ways you’ve left scars on my brain When am I gonna get through this I sold all the jewelry Gave the money to charity When are you gonna stop throwing hits You’ve got two new lovers Do they know about your letters How many ways can I say goodbye I’m so ashamed that I’m still messed up Destroying myself in the mirror, it’s fucked Replaying what you said to me, even now 9 months clean Don’t wanna play anyone this song I’ve been faking strong for so god damn long I’ve ignored every word since October 13th And oh, isn’t it sweet to have the truth The earthquake stopped but I’m still rebuilding rooms When am I gonna get through this I sold all the jewelry Gave the money to charity When are you gonna stop throwing hits You’ve got two new lovers Do they know about your letters How many ways can I say goodbye You told me how replaceable I am But you still seem surprised at how fast that I ran 10 dark months have gone, My skin is the color of the pen that you draw I’ve been scrubbing for so long All the skin that you touched has fallen off I know I’m I gonna get through this I sold all the jewelry Gave the money to charity When are you gonna stop throwing hits You’ve got two new lovers Do they know about your letters How many ways can I say goodbye