tangled control

Careless creature In the yard You stepped on Something Sort of important And I think you crushed it My controlling hand was twisted inside out, and now I am at its mercy I have never hated myself more There is no end to this The solution to every issue is the same Every hard feeling is met with burning release The cycle repeats I fall back into her gravity Despite my best efforts to stand taller To not be pulled backwards To not stumble down her flights of stairs That took so painfully long to climb What an uncomfortable place to sit in That stupid, lonely, isolated, miserable chair I rearranged everything in my house to hide it But now there are even more places to sit So I pace around endlessly If I'm being honest, I wish I could stop But I'm not like my parents I'm not like you I won't ever be able to 1, 2, 3 3, 1, 2, 1, 2, 3 1, 3, 2, 1, 2, 3 I cannot stop counting everything That stupid, lonely, isolated, miserable chair