Eighteen

Tomorrow night I turn eighteen Tonight, well, I'll just turn the key To my Grandpa's 2014 Forester It's kinda funny and it's kinda bittersweet That my childhood has all led up to me Drawing tattoos of astrology In a permanent marker Took a picture every single night before Daddy scared me, said that I'll grow out the door Didn't wanna be a kid no more It's funny 'Cuz now I'm lying in bed for the eighteenth year Hasn't hit me next time I won't be here I'll be sitting in a dorm room With somebody And maybe I'll enjoy the freedom Might be healthy not to see them This is what you've wanted your whole life And now I'm standing at the threshold A million reasons not to let go A million and one to take the dive I haven't cried in a while, I cried tonight And through my door I told a lie "Mom, I promise everything's alright" "It's nothing" But sometimes the world comes caving in And my stomach turns into the abyss And I know that something's missing Can't find something And maybe I'll like independence Wear my pride just like a necklace Independent girls don't need advice And now I'm standing at the threshold A million reasons not to let go A million and one to take the dive And I'm not scared of my mortality I think I'm scared of change Follow tracks that I can't see I'll focus on the train Abandoning my adolescence Don't you think that's strange? I'm not scared of my mortality I think I'm scared of change But I'm seventeen today Tomorrow night I turn eighteen Tonight, well, I'll just turn the key To my Grandpa's 2014 Forester A million reasons not to let go A million and one to take the dive