Snow Day

When the bell rings, we're on winter break I marked it up in red but it feels fake Because I cant remember Anything about November Or December Where'd the time go? Every day feels like slow motion Tell me something special 'bout your day Remarkable or average It's okay, the hours blend together Days and weeks I can't remember Nothing 'bout my average life Can make distinctions in my mind Anymore And I'm walking to the door I'm blocked behind a foot of snow The schools are closed I'm staying home I take the day to clear my head I waste away, I stay in bed Pajamas inside out I wished for snow And then it came And I don't know I haven't left my bedroom in two days I couldn't come up with a reason I've got the world at my command A keystroke or a reach of hand I'm rotting in my bed Inside my head Just pull my thread Unravel Tell me I can climb out of this hole Tell me there's no point in letting go Three dots instead of one My documentary's just begun I'm just tired I'm just cold Don't know if I'm scared of getting old Anymore And I'm walking to the door I'm blocked behind a foot of snow The schools are closed I'm staying home I take the day to clear my head I waste away, I stay in bed Pajamas inside out I wished for snow And then it came And I don't know I don't know Well, I've gotten good at playing pretend Flashing empty smiles to my friends A ghost inside my body Go through motions like a zombie Only thing I feel is dread Well that, and the blood rushing to my head And I keep repeating "things will change" I say don't talk to strangers, but I'm strange The same old songs I'm humming Cut my hair, I still feel nothing Wait for college Wait for marriage Waiting for my pumpkin carriage I'm walking to the door The schools are closed I'm staying home I take the day to clear my head I waste away, I stay in bed Pajamas inside out I wished for snow And then it came And I don't know