Subtraction

I cried in my room for 13 hours straight to get over a guy I couldn't change, but I'm over that one. There's still damage left undone. I dated a guy for less than a month just to end it quick. I only kissed him once. I feel guilty every day. Thanks for a memory I can save, but in fact, there are times that I can look back and ask myself if I learned anything And I will take my hands and hold my eyes and pray that something will go right, that I will find a guy to fix it all. And I will eat my words and hold my tongue so he won't leave and I'll have fun for at least, at least a couple minutes. Oh, and I, I'll make up the difference. I don't know what I'll say the next time I see him. Maybe shake his hand. Nothing happens for a reason. I don't mind being a people pleaser I'd rather work myself to the bone than end up being someone who's alone. I'll figure it out in the end But in fact, there are times that I can look back and ask myself if I learned anything And I will take my hands and hold my eyes and pray that something will go right, that God will send a guy to fix it all And I will eat my words and hold my tongue so he won't leave and I'll have fun for at least, at least a couple minutes Oh, and I, I'll make the difference All those nights sitting on my floor waiting for someone to love me more than the boy living on my phone They'd hold my hand when I cried, they'd come over not asking why should I Cause in fact, there are things that stayed intact and I asked myself why I let those things slide And I will take my hands and hold my eyes and pray that something will go right, that I don't need a guy to fix it all And he can eat my words and hold his tongue and he can leave and I'll have fun for more than a couple minutes Oh, and I, I'll make the difference Oh, and I, I'll make the difference