This Time

I got picked up by the law again There's something 'bout a September wind That hits me different The days get short and the nights are long And it's when I start to feel alone And long sleeves can hide the bruises on my arms And I'm alive, but I'm dead inside My hopes, my dreams, you and me I always sabotage it seems And here we'll be again, I'll get better But the good don't last forever Guess I feel safe in my own misery And you'll hold on as long as you can But it truly hurts to be my man And you'll pray and pray I'll make it out alive This time I stole from my own family I watched my kids cry and scream And I pretended that I didn't feel a thing Cause I'm not worth the work it takes To put in every single day You're all so much better off without me And I cry, cause I'm dead inside And I know it won't be long until you leave me And here we'll be again, I'll get better But the good don't last forever Guess I feel safe in my own misery And you'll hold on as long as you can But it truly hurts to be my man And you'll pray and pray I'll make it out alive This time This time And here we'll be again, I'll get better But the good don't last forever Guess I feel safe in my own misery And you'll hold on as long as you can But it truly hurts to be my man And you'll pray and pray I'll make it out alive Here I'll be again, I got better no it may not last forever But I promise you I'll make it out alive This time