it's not enough.

I can't find my way to this promised land Where fears and hopelessness are banned Ideas of what my life would be Began crumbling at 23 Internal deadlines on the clock As birthday candles light me up To mark another season gone Disappointments going strong Toking on my favorite greens To get me down to cruising speed Stormy waves to tranquil seas I call it my therapy Ooooooh I've had this ringing in my ears for years Drown all my desires in fear spirals Convince me to give it up That it's not enough Enough Years pass but nothing changes Got my mind set on escaping To pretenses in my dreams While my own future's looking bleak I'll grind all day and sing through rage To clear up my mental space But even in these quiet times Only clutter fills my mind Information overloading To distract from what ain't working While the fears I haven't shed Are what makes up my bed Ooooooh I've had this ringing in my ears for years Drowns all my desires in fear spirals Convince me to give it up That it's not enough Enough Enough Day after day after day And my nights are running away I'm always just a little too late I listen to hearsay Activities on replay Feels like I'm my own disgrace An imposter and a fake With shiny nails on display I can't run away from these traits But I don't know if I believe in fate When I say I'll be what I always hated Self concept is fading to traces of a thousand faces They morphe into shapelessness Selfishness I've had this ringing in my ears for years Drowns all my desires in fear spirals Convince me to give it up Cuz it's not enough I've had this ringing in my ears for years Drowns all my desires in fear spirals Convince me to give it up That it's not enough Enough