I Can't Help

Saw the flashing glow through your back window cause you fell asleep to a silent TV I wonder if she's there, I know she must be aware of the things you text me when she falls asleep Saw you both at a party, you brushed my arm I started crying Every touch is a cruelty, don't know why you do this to me? I have a little light, flickers when you're in my life I know that it's wrong but I will try to justify it I used to turn it off, my self discipline is gone You move mountains in my mind, ones I thought I couldn't climb I can't help wonder where you are now, think of what you think about Wonder if this worked out, could I look at myself? I can't help Knowing that she loves you, there is nothing to do This is not the right thing, now I think I hate me I won't play this game I'm putting up the walls I'm keeping distance, I'm no mistress missing all your calls I can't help the truth, I'm still in love with you So you'll go home with her and I'll get under someone new I'll get under someone new I can't help wonder where you are now, think of what you think about Wonder if this worked out, could I look at myself? I can't help Knowing that she loves you, there is nothing to do This is not the right thing, now I think I hate me Ohhhhhhhh