Spilling

I can sense the darkness Always following behind me Forces I can feel in my spine Though you couldn't see The mask he wore in front of us all Hid the demon inside We were deep in denial 20 Years of waiting for change that never came The letter I burned didn't have to be too late that day If you're looking for answers Go ask God when you pray If you'll be forgiven, I'm not the one to say Now that you're behind bars I still think of you Thinking if there's anything you thought you shouldn't do I'm still alive but the memories come Spilling out, spilling out, just spilling out Sometimes the drive to work Is when I'm most reminded Hands gripping the wheel I can barely steer to fight it I dread the nights I toss and turn till morning in my bed So don't talk to me About wishing you were dead 20 Years believing my circumstance will never change Who you were to me is no longer here today If you're looking for answers Go ask God when you pray If you'll be forgiven, I'm not the one to say Now that you're behind bars I still think of you Thinking if there's anything you thought you shouldn't do I'm still alive but the mem'ries come Spilling out, spilling out, just spilling out Now that you're behind bars I still think of you Thinking if there's anything you thought you shouldn't do