fatal mind

I just wanna sleep Why'm I always tired? Call myself a liar I'm just numb It's getting hard to breathe But my life is so perfect Really don't deserve this Selfish thought All I see are ghosts of long lost Lovers that have gone Trying to move on No one sees me grieving Tell myself it's healing But I'm stuck I can keep pretending But we both know Waking up at 7pm Baggy clothes and bad excuses That's not who I am But no one gives a damn Parents laugh and call it hormones Friends think I just got my heart broke No one seems to find That I'm held hostage by my fatal mind They're always telling me The 20s are the best years Shouldn't waste them in tears So I try Cant force myself to be The perfect little angel Lost my wings and halo To his lies Trust me I am well aware Not everyone's a user Have a little faith I'll find it when I'm 30 Show a boy some mercy Bat my eyes I can keep pretending But we both know Waking up at 7pm Baggy clothes and bad excuses That's not who I am But no one gives a damn Parents laugh and call it hormones Friends think I just got my heart broke No one seems to find That I'm held hostage by my fatal mind My fatal fatal mind So unkind Sees I'm always left behind Undefined Redesigned Not the one I was assigned Feel confined Straight decline Since the loyal ones resigned Undermined Love deprived Late night drives and blurry street lights Getting high off every lie That's not who I am But no one gives a damn Did my people ever know me? Wish I was the girl they all see No one seems to find That I'm held hostage by my fatal mind Oh My fatal fatal mind My fatal fatal mind