B.F.

We as humans vision shit that could have been Stewart Ave is a place that I had used to live But I'll go tell you all a story Bout the day I was to horny And it costed me a memory That haunts me to this day I was just 19 living carefree With a shorty who was always hopping on me We had used protection twice On the first and second night Until she got obsessed with soaking up her ovaries But this took two to always tango Tried back shoots and even tried aiming low But once you feel it all inside Got you rolling back your eyes You say f*ck it to the drugs Cause this a different type of high But we were kids our self, and we were good at that You considered all your babies, just your 3 cats And it's exactly cause of that I gained a certain type of hatred Now my dick ain't running wild, now that shits domesticated It's both our faults, both our faults, both our faults I ain't placing blame Cause we both are wrong, both are wrong Both are wrong Now fast track, it's been a year I'm still hitting it To us the only sex is skin to skin friction and You on some new job shit, you go off shit Out of town for two weeks for Some training bit Like damn This little thing we had was getting pretty off the rails We couldn't see the signs like we was only feeling brail But maybe time apart would bring us back to that attraction We were seen as a whole, but the bond was on some fractions So ten days pass, I'm chill, catching up with lads She's missing me I'm missing her, this texting shit is trash See I miss that woman's touch, some feminine company See I'm feeling myself, but you the one that stay loving me But this the juicy part, just a test of tenacious I guess you could say this turned a shitty situation Cause I was on the toilet, mid afternoon Remember all the details even down to the stool Back and forth texting, with the light on My pants down She texts me I text back She three dots Then long pause You cut off Just midway What you going to say Then sends a picture That makes my Eyes wide It wasn't just a picture of a fucking flashing titty And it wasn't any filter with some hearts asking miss me But instead it was a stick with emojis that was happy The stick was positive said congrats you're a daddy It's both our faults, both our faults, both our faults I ain't placing blame Cause we both are wrong, both are wrong Both are wrong Now your back, with your skin glowed up Big ass smile, like you so cheered up But once we got to talking we agreed we wasn't gonna have it We would go through the pain till we both became callous But like magic you changed my mind, a different type of grind Was ready to love and care for this child of mine Told my parents about it, moms was in parade My pops gained respect, said a real man stays Even though you told me I could leave without repercussions Hormones were acting wild like you on something Crying over small stuff, telling you are loved The mother of my child is nothing but built tough Until the night we got to talking dinner with your parents Your pops said something that got you incoherent He or she could have an allergy to those felines So once the kid is born leave them behind Now I thought, this was common fucking sense The kid or the cats this was blood or some pests Till you siding with the cats, on some maybe we ain't ready I'll make the appointment, the timing just ain't steady Different realizations, but was willing to accept it But real deep down, felt abandoned and depression And the night before the day always plays in my mind Kissing you goodnight, and when I go to kiss goodbye You push me away and when I look you in the eye You said Jamesmikel Go to sleep and just accept it The more you show emotion The more you'll be affected