One Last Thing

I’ve been out here tryna find my balance Having constant runs ins with people that show you malice Fake handshakes and hugs I’m better without it More that I think about it the more I can’t stay around it, I’m out it Proud of the struggle I’m part of the struggle Pardon my, honesty, honestly always been troubled My heart purer than clearest water, mind out of order But certain things just don’t matter when you getting older Know that I’m far from finished Know that I’m still in it Pressure I still feel it, I know it’s not for everyone and some things are God-given Some of my brothers still in the field like they cotton-picking Just know if I’m winning then that means that we all winning My life's mission What was my purpose And when my time is up then was it really worth it Was my life just a lesson in place for higher learning Or was my life just a vessel to reach a higher version But when that day comes I go with my respect Live and cherish the moments I die without regrets I'll leave a legacy carried by family and friends And if there isn’t a heaven I’ll do it all again I'll do it all again If there isn't a heaven I'll do it all again I'll do it all again I'll do it all again (all again, all again, all again) I know some girls that’s in need of attention Battling inner demons that’s why they search for perfection Always overlooking the things that they naturally blessed with Just know there’s nothing more beautiful than your imperfections It’s always hard when you don’t love yourself So instead you try finding love in somebody else Closer to Maxwell cause this woman’s work Devalues in every minute you don’t know your worth Oh what, you think that you found something? Even if it slides you just wanna be 'round something You even caught a case when you went out of town for him And when the cops coming you was holding it down for him You proud of it, plus you love him and... That’s your man And in the name of loyalty you would go take that stand Hand on the bible you would do five years for that man Mistakes do gotta happen to help you to understand Don’t stress it’s in God's hands okay If you’re in need And listening just know that your story's a part of me You put on makeup covering scars what does it mean When you look at your reflection and don’t like what you see And as hard as it seems I’m hoping you get that Even if you got stretch marks where your skin at Even if your teeth ain’t straight or ass ain’t fat Even if your weave's straight, curly, or your hair nap acting like we ain’t been black (proud) White skin, light skin, brown skin, dark skin Don’t matter we all God's children Speaking of God I got so many questions Like, why do all religions gotta cause division? Is it real or man-made? Need a higher power for my cuts like a bandaid Way too deep so I hope that prayer works And why some of the worst people always in the church? New journey in a similar place Got choirs singing on the album for amazing grace This could be my last album if I don’t win the race Hope I see victory lap for my family's sake Wait, R.I.P. Nipsey I brought my people with me So if I’m seeing better days they get to see it with me I’m still searching for answers I guess I'll find it later Until next time wait for me and my ultimatum...2020