Dead Inside

Dead inside I told you that I'm dead inside I told you I'm not tryna fight I told you I can't do this no more This pain is getting harder to hold See me smile in pubic cause I'll never let my pain show I don't wanna keep fighting I just wanna let go Bitch I really hate you I wish I never met you Had me thinking you cared for me That you was always there for me Now all I know you as as a distant memory I don't know what to do I don't know where to go Your heart was my true home Now I'm lost in this cold world Walking down this dark road Asking God can he get me out this dark hole The devil got his hooks in me and he won't ever let go Uh uh uh uh Depression getting stronger My heart is getting colder The voices in my head Steady telling me it's over You left without no closure You fw me for the exposure My pops is fighting addiction I hope that he get sober My mama always told me to choose love carefully The ones you least expect will be the only ones who's there for me Telling me you love me is something that I'll never believe So when I up and leave can you really blame me Can you really blame me Can you really blame me Seeing you wit that Nigga Bitch it really pains me All the memories we had it really fucking changed me It really really taught me Not to trust these bitches and they dirty ass fucking schemes I'll never cuff these bitches I'll just pass them to the team (yeah) Sippin on that dirty sprite it's fucking up my kidneys I'm steady speaking on my pain I hope that you can hear me Yeah yeah yeah yeah losing trust in everybody These bitches be for everybody When my demon come alive I promise it's a scary site How you claim you love me But wit that nigga every nite You tellin me you pressure I shouldn't have believed the hype Smoking blunt after blunt Taking pill after pill Steady asking myself (uhh) when will I fucking heal One min you love me Next min you hate me My mind goin crazy Feel like I'm close to insanity