A Salinas Soliloquy

Rackin my brain How you feelin This music my mirror My self reflection See where I'm from We taught suppress em Big boys don't cry All that shit that's for the women Backwards thinking Stagnant people Generations deep The shit get deep though I see my daughter Grow into self Guess I do the same at the same time Just always worried about everybody else And that's my problem It be my loyalty Got everybody Who really got me Simple question Simple man I repent I repent I repent Dirty deeds Things I did There ain't a soul I could ever fully trust in From the bottom Of my heart Are we gon grow together, baby Or we grow apart Simple question Now which one is it? Cause this thang gon move Whether or not you with it I learned that business Don't mix with family Greed got my cuzzo Trynna scam my aunties It's a cold game Cold blooded Shit change No longer brothers On my momma I been solid I hope my loved ones feel at ease When I say I got em I had to shake em Get from near em I got the game from BLISM I don't even hear em I'm overwhelmed Buried to my upper lip My nose still exposed though I ain't drowning yet Now I could panic kill myself Yea lose my shit Or I could just chill Enjoy the lil I got left Yea what I got now Forget back then In the moment baby Is where we need to live Life's a trip No more wasting time Cause we could be dead By the end of this line.. Damn