All The Pain

Chyea Chyea Kaveman You don't know my struggle boy Look Let me speak on something though You don't know all the pain all the hurt it took to get to this today Stomach touchy praying for them better days At my aunties too much pride like I already ate And my welcome yea I think I over stayed Have you ever had to sleep off a tummy ache And why's pops snappy every time his eyes is glazed Moms in the room been in bed for a couple days I'm next door all alone with music loud Dazed and confused trying to drown it out There I was in the bucket strap on my lap Looking for a quick lick to feed my baby in the back I don't wanna do it but I'm out of diapers I justify it but I know I ain't living righteous I really might just jump off in the deep end Talking shit making jokes to cope, that's my secret Here I am standing tall crooked smile Never blink and shed the tears of a crocodile Tears of my pain flesh of my flesh Life's a bitch know you blessed if you facing death She say she see the pain the pain behind my eyes All the pain I bottle and hide deep inside Tears of my pain flesh of my flesh Life's a bitch know you blessed when you facing death She say she see the pain all the pain I hide All the pain I disguise with a crooked smile Man these hoes ain't loyal I don't trust the homies Shits gone strange I don't trust no one around me My last 20 dollars to the homie he in county I wish we all could change but I highly doubt it Helped him out when he was homeless let him crash at the crib I turn around and he try and pop at my bitch Give an inch boy they take a mile Fighting with myself whether or not to whack him out See if you've ever struggled with me The love unconditionally I gives a f*ck baby you know me I don't love much but anything I do is OD Ain't really getting sleep I tried counting sheep Like a fiend wake up cold sweats through the sheets I'm going cold turkey it's time I cut em off Snip snip work my way through these withdrawals Tears of my pain flesh of my flesh Life's a bitch know you blessed if you facing death She say she see the pain the pain behind my eyes All the pain I bottle and hide deep inside Tears of my pain flesh of my flesh Life's a bitch know you blessed when you facing death She say she see the pain all the pain I hide All the pain I disguise with a crooked smile