Pain

Rolling, smoking Laughing, joking I can't focus, happy hoping Can't stop coughing, might be broken I can't open the ibuprofen Bathroom coke with the backdoor open Pack dope and a book by Tolkien Rescue folks with a restroom joke and my rhymes so fresh like a test tube broke I'm an experimental emcee coping with the fact that I can't be trusted Not a cokehead, not a cool kid, not a fool, but I can be bested Investing time into lines on a page, because my mind's so restless I tested myself with an eye to the frame, talking shrooms for breakfast Drink acid, think passive aggressive, I take two hits, then pass it So classic, sip from a glass, then a flask, then I flash out out the back as practice They told me keep myself in a lane, but I can't have it Pinpointing thoughts on a map of the brain, my lyrics show my madness Inner sadness, my vigor vanished, I think I'm banished from home I gotta vanquish any demons creeping, but then I'm back on my own I swear there's no such thing as a remedy, except for the moments in a melody Melatonin and melanin mellow me They don't know better but everybody's telling me I know what you need I know how you feel Just let it go right now, come on let's smoke right now Hold up I gotta get it done, before I set upon another journey now I keep my head up strong It is never wrong when you get fed up from their lack of faith I drop it like megaton I'm afraid that I'm much too proud, talk too much, they don't trust me now I'm like Kev please shut your mouth, I'm trying to bloom like a mushroom cloud I got the benefit now, but the doubt I'll be better without, a wild crowd is my medicine How'd I get elegant eloquence that amounts to a hell of a crown? Pound for pound, the sound profound, and it all surrounds me Still young so it all scares me And I am not at all prepared and I am often wary of how far I fell from the monastery I know what you need I know how you feel Just let it go right now, come on let's smoke right now Rolling, smoking, laughing, joking, coughing, choking, crying, coping Losing focus, back and forth and back again but I ain't notice Not okay, see I'm just moping, hoping, stoked and trying to get attention What I need is a minor intervention, writing what I mention, that is my invention Chilling on the seesaw, black hat hacker like yeehaw See me horsing around like weesnaw When meemaw and peepaw had the green card Thinking about "What could you be, how would you act if they weren't looking Who are you really, what is your ceiling, what are you feeling, and how can we feel it?" I know what you need I know how you feel Just let it go right now, come on and smoke right now Stepped away for a second just to breathe But I know there ain't nothing but the noise in my brain I got a dream so clear, I should scream at these folks But it's nothing but the noise in my brain, can't complain Come on, let's smoke