Permanent Scarz

In a dark place, in a dark place Had to tell you to your face I kept it so straight, I kept it so real You into playing games I ain't into all the spills Now you hiding from me Expecting me to seek When all you had to do was tell the fucking truth We meant to be grown The f*ck is going on I Accepted my L I'm keeping to myself Trying to keep to real All I have to say I'm guessing it's a phase I'm pushing on for a better day Pushing all my weight out this muh fucking state I'm trying to be a better me I'm trying to do the best for me Mum's see I'm suffering Shits getting the best of me I wave no apologies People taking parts of me I rather be own, peace at mind with my songs Looking for a wifey to hold me when I'm sad b No time for a hoe, empty sex getting old Wana share memories when I'm old with my wifey Twenty years deep speaking how we meet Telling the kids this is love, this is how it's meant to be But I'm stuck in the present When everyone claims their down Screaming ride or die Then they ghost ride the whip, thinking their that slick I'm talking to myself I'm pacing up and down Side eyeing who's around I Hate meeting someone new What's your name? What's your mood? Where you live? What you do? Are we kool? Me and you? F*ck out my face, get on your way Coming in my life when you ain't here to stay You know you going to flake then you going to shake Trying to get my love and cut had to tap the brakes Showing my wounds, I'm showing my scars The f*ck I got to do to show u that I'm hard Trying to keep it real All I gotta say I'm guessing it's a phase I'm pushing for a better day Times be getting tough Trying to keep my fucking spirits up Lost in my thoughts I'm sending all my prayers up Don't wana reach out but I think I need the help Tables going to turn when bridges getting melt Showed them all my flaws and they ran off with my heart How am I meant to trust when someone switches up Close ones to me be getting very scared I know you've been here for a whole bunch of years But my trust is very shaky I'll rather say my prayers Please forgive the distance I'm fighting all my fears I'm dying inside, I'm searching for my tears Rebuilding what breaks Constant pain on the brain Showing these emotions Yes I refrain Cuz ain't nothing to gain No one really cares