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I know what it's like to feel shit, lost Head spinnin' and everything is wrong Maybe it's me, where do I belong? Going straight to bed no thought about alarms Pointless worries got me sweatin' Why have these thoughts been let in? What hurts the most is the shit you don't know Bite the bullet go and talk to someone close Soon as I land trim, gotta be fresh for the cameras, the people, the socials The party, the ladies that keep on suggesting I show them the bedroom the lifestyle the Benz But maybe this is pretend, I couldn't give a f*ck about impressing a chick When I can see my own girl in my bed The life that I've led All the good I've done to cleanse my soul And with that being said I can still let my darkness spill but it only spills in my head So let me take you for a spin, show you around What's up what's down In here man it's all shaken around but I found The right place for it all to sound perfect It took me years to locate my weakness And who would've thought I used it to beat this, my own mind It's a long long road What have I been fed Get the f*ck out of my head I thought that's what I said Wanna put this shit to bed What have I been fed Get the f*ck out of my head I'm not surprised I'm like this I just thought I cared But I know I'm not alone cos if I was I would be dead But the people round me make a difference and I think that's why I'm scared Cos when I'm left alone I just compulsively obsess Did I already say that or should I check again? 1 time 2 time 3 time 4 time More time I couldn't even sleep 'til it was light out 20 years I couldn't even cry bout Cos I wasn't meant to know but it's ok somehow Cos it made it that much more real And imagine I couldn't even fight it 'til now Scribble down, scribble scribble down Breaking pencils on the notepad 'til my thoughts start giving out A quick little dip in my mind, not a gulp just a sip It's not easy tryna tell you what I felt and that's shit, I can't say too much in one song it wouldn't fit, But I take a look back to remember how far ahead I am to quit, I couldn't stand the way it sits, so I stand to say my bit I know what it's like to feel shit, lost Head spinnin' and everything is wrong Maybe it's me, where do I belong? Going straight to bed no thought about alarms Pointless worries got me sweatin' Why have these thoughts been let in? What hurts the most is the shit you don't know Bite the bullet go and talk to someone close I know what it's like to feel shit, lost Head spinnin' and everything is wrong Maybe it's me, where do I belong? Going straight to bed no thought about alarms Pointless worries got me sweatin' Why have these thoughts been let in? What hurts the most is the shit you don't know Bite the bullet go and talk to someone close I know what it's like to feel shit