Midnight Madness (feat. Lochee)

Here I am again in this blackness Tryna lift the weight of this sadness What do these thoughts mean, what's gonna happen? I'm a victim of the midnight madness I remember a time when I was actually happy Before the cold breeze of reality came and attacked me Before my father left suddenly then it was just my mother, brother and me The coldness infected my whole anatomy Have you ever felt so dead inside? That breathing is the only thing that reminds you that your still alive Sometimes it feels like oxygen is the only thing that distinguishes me from the dead They said laughter is the best medicine But sometimes the only laughter I hear is from the demons living in my head This bed feels like a coffin ever since she left Do you know how many times I've bled inside? Thinking about all the wrongs I could have made right I just want someone to hold me tight to wipe the tears from my eyes And say I'm here baby it's gonna be alright But where can I find a woman to help me fight the brokenness that hides behind my eyes? These sheets feel like there infested with termites That's why I'm afraid to turn off the lights Cause the darkness is the place where the madness thrives, it's 12:05 Here I am again in this blackness (Yeah) Tryna lift the weight of this sadness (Of this sadness) What do these thoughts mean, what's gonna happen? (What's gonna happen?) I'm a victim of the midnight madness Yeah Back to when I had a different act on life Never second guessing with the thoughts that run my mind Never ever dreamt that I'd be born to rip this mic Now I'm thinking quick without a grip on doors that might help my life Well hell is fine if I don't change in time Pain is my way I aim to fire Breaking my ambitions while I'm making new decisions shaking up my wisdom Gotta listen but these drugs are glistening in the sun Temptations got me on the run I'm shaking cunt an bracing up for impact My minds telling me just hit that Do I mind telling me that shits whack A simple fact, get back or you'll get smacked Don't forget class or you'll end up like Pat Who got his ass smashed with a bottle o' Jack Damn.. I had to hit the throttle n gapped outta the joint With the last of my coin n soy sauce Them toys talk, boys walk but men stand! Here I am again in this blackness Tryna lift the weight of this sadness What do these thoughts mean, what's gonna happen? I'm a victim of the midnight madness