st louis lights

I stopped in Medicine Bow It's been three days since I crossed state lines I'm not used to feeling alone It's been three months of me saying"I'll be fine" I'm trying my best to heal on this painstaking drive I'm trying my best to make me feel alive But the St. Louis lights are blinding my eyes And it's so hard to drive in this rain This bridge goes on forever And this inclement weather makes me feel like I won't come out of this the same It'll be three days since I got home and I'll wonder"What the hell possessed me to leave?" Now I'm spending summer sticky and sunburnt With new old relationships to grieve (Like what the f*ck?) I'm trying my best not to remember December And the way you made me feel I'm trying my best to be proud of myself But shit gets too real And the St. Louis lights are blinding my eyes And it's so hard to drive in this rain This bridge goes on forever And this inclement weather makes me feel like I won't come out of this the same Oh, it'll never be the same (It'll never be the same) (It'll never be the same) Oh, August I'll be back and you won't remember my name Oh, it'll never be the same (It'll never be the same) Oh, August I'll be back and you won't remember my name (You won't remember my name)