Unloading

Finally unloading all this weight in ink I'm confessing to myself Gotta saviour within Got dogs in my mind that'll bark if I don't let them out Only I got the leash I'mma cut this shit out Who let this one out Turned my burdens into stairs Now I'm climbing the clouds Used to pray in silence, now I speak my blessings out loud Got the pillar of God in my spine You can't crack me now So many times I've questioned all the choices I made When it didn't make sense, I would ask em again Asking why, oh why won't make it happen again I can't replay any moments, so I press play on my Focus Sometimes I get backlash from the flashbacks Of the times I drank too much, I couldn't pass that Too lit to remember any memories Taking all of them free shots cost me court fees And I can't lie, battling with bottles left my heart dry A cup full of errors, I was trynna get right I lost a lot of people, and I was losing the fight I lost a lot of sleep, and I was losing my mind Felt lost in the night, hard to see a sunrise Killing me softly, why am I killing me softly I almost lost my life, this shit unreal I realized losing myself is my greatest fear Gotta show me love, I deserve it I'm breaking down walls, I'm unlearning Just give me a moment, I'm learning How to lay low, and hold my own I'm feeling all this space inside my home I can't run away, I'm all I know I'm healing me softly, I'm patching up nicely This love feels so righteous, I know I deserve it Forgiveness on my mind, and patience on my wounds I can't sprint to Spring, cause I gotta fall to live through Growing pains, leads to big blooms Holding in pain, leads to big booms When you're tired, find out what you got energy for When you alone, find out who you want around more By myself, I became my best company Had to learn these contradicting lessons in pairs of three Was I the hero for saving myself Was I the damsel for being distressed Was I the villain for causing the pain All I gotta say is sorry self for all the pain