Lie to myself

I found God but it goes unnamed The words that speak from the pouring rain As I lie here am I to blame Left behind now I've gotta change Wish I had knew that I'm gonna get through it What I've been losing When I lie to myself Nothing to prove but man it's killing my health I lie to myself I'm getting used to pour into you The story's told when the journey ends To leave behind but to start again I build a life where I can't pretend That I have lost all of my old friends Wish I had knew that I'm gonna get through it What I've been losing When I lie to myself Nothing to prove but man it's killing my health I lie to myself I'm getting used to pour into you I lie to myself Battered and bruised but man It's killing my health I lie to myself Breaking the rules to pour into you