disappointed

I'm disappointed in myself Ah, F*ck Put the blame on me As a memory Yeah, I know that I don't know myself Disappointed in myself I'm disappointed in myself, I'm not doing enough Everyday I wake up thinking about how it was I don't know why, I don't know why Cause this is what I want This is what I want This is what I want I'm disappointed in myself, I'm not doing enough Everyday I wake up thinking about how it was I don't know why, I don't know why Cause this is what I want This is what I want This is what I want Gotta get up and moving bitch If you don't want this then just quit I'm just tired of the social media shit Encyclopaedia shit See, I'm just not one for tricks I wanna be the real me, but the real me goes a-miss I'm just tired of the fake love I been there and I done that They switch teams then make scenes Then blame it all up on me And these girls say they want me I find it kinda funny You'll claim you love me for a bit Then play me like a dummy Familiar faces looking at me I do better on my own and that you'll see Ima leave you in the past as a memory I wanna get so far I have you begging please I'm disappointed in myself, I'm not doing enough Everyday I wake up thinking about how it was I don't know why, I don't know why Cause this is what I want This is what I want This is what I want I'm disappointed in myself, I'm not doing enough Everyday I wake up thinking about how it was I don't know why, I don't know why Cause this is what I want This is what I want This is what I want Memories fading, I'm tired of writing these pages Accepting my life was a book, and you're a chapter, let's face it All the years that you wasted and all the tears you created I sometimes wish I could have you back It's mostly when I'm faded Do you prescribe medicine For what I been through, all the pain within? Where do I begin? I know I have sinned Way too many times, maybe that's the reason why Go ahead take it out on me I know life is sad, let it rain on me Let your teardrops fall, that's what it takes to be Another one up in my life that ain't make the team I'm disappointed in myself, I'm not doing enough Everyday I wake up thinking about how it was I don't know why, I don't know why Cause this is what I want This is what I want This is what I want I'm disappointed in myself, I'm not doing enough Everyday I wake up thinking about how it was I don't know why, I don't know why Cause this is what I want This is what I want This is what I want Go ahead put the blame on me Yeah, I know that Uh I'm not doing enough