Challenges (feat. Grizz XI & JazzeBeats)

Believe me, I was a different person Believe me, I was a different person Feel the same that I got this anxiety And probably I would rather be A constant reminder to myself A variety of challenges The abnormalities, insecurities Believe me, I was a different person Feel the same that I got this anxiety And probably I would rather be A constant reminder to myself A variety of challenges The abnormalities, insecurities Uh, should I talk about it Should I get it off my chest? Maybe breathe better Cause the weight on my back is getting real heavy Broad shoulders, big heart, but that was never enough Maybe I should talk about it, how I feel inside Plus it's kinda hard with all these unexpected emotions I've been running circles, I feel a lot, I feel nothing, nothing in between Anxiety got me asking if I'll ever be good BPD got me feeling like I'll never be good Taking pills just to keep myself level-headed Elevated, OD on my mind but I will never give in Suicide on my mind but I will never give in Thoughts of being happy overpower these feelings I just wanna be better but it's a day at a time Take it easy, don't be hard on yourself Those words keep on ringing in my mind everyday I know God watching, maybe this is part of His plan But honestly, my faith been running close to the E Mama says keep praying, It gets better with time But I don't know how much time I have left Maybe I should talk about it My fake smiling, make me numb to the pain Living happy but really I'm dying slowly inside Fast lane living, tryna lose all of my demons Losing control of myself, I can feel it ending Father hold my hand, that's my final resort But if the end comes, I hope you Believe me I was a different person Feel the same that I got this anxiety And probably I would rather be A constant reminder to myself A variety of challenges The abnormalities, insecurities Believe me I was a different person Feel the same that I got this anxiety And probably I would rather be A constant reminder to myself A variety of challenges The abnormalities, insecurities Am I a failure if my brother isn't doing well I usually hear the silence, how the f*ck I couldn't tell Should have known, you told me don't trip but you already fell Tackling demons all alone it's like the NFL But I'm glad you hit my line brodie, I'm your quarterback Touchdown PTA, told you pack your backs And I'm tryna stay strong the whole time, far from that I got fear in my eyes, the tears no surprise My head to the skies, I thank God for your life And I'm proud of you bruv, cause it could never be me I could've kept it inside, I could've let it kill me If you the bigger man already, why you look up to me? It's bad business honestly, how I'm dealing with things I tell you talk about it, slime, but I keep it within We done took too many losses, I just need us to win And you were made in the image, so you really be him You God's son, you got it son Living through our mother's prayers, there you were the chosen one So don't you ever think of ending, you ain't even begun That fat lady ain't sung, It could be dark days bro But we gon' wake to the sun And if it's hard for you to talk, you could give me a sign And I will listen to your silence Anything is better than the self-inflicted violence You could lose the battle, win the war, keep on fighting And it's a note to me too, Your brother understands And I stand for you Believe me I was a different person Feel the same that I got this anxiety And probably I would rather be A constant reminder to myself A variety of challenges The abnormalities, insecurities Believe me I was a different person Feel the same that I got this anxiety And probably I would rather be A constant reminder to myself A variety of challenges The abnormalities, insecurities