Chronic Illness

How do I honestly answer When someone asks how you're doing When you're battling chronic illnesses I get fainty when I look up Or if I'm too long in the tub Or if I'm walking on an incline Like when I'm up and down some stairs My vision starts to create pairs And feeling in my body declines The blood flow starts to leave my head Intense fatigue and numbness spreads Not sure if I've reached my life deadline This war can't be seen on my skin Society likes to play pretend And treat what I face as benign Life feels like a burden Too heavy to bear People have great intentions Limit to their care Don't know how to exist Community in the midst People don't get how Things still aren't fixed Ready for more Food time's a punishment at best Finding what I can eat's a stress and who knows when nausea will go away I'm full before I take a bite 'Cause TMJ is locking tight low-fod diet's too strict to stay Can only push one meal a day So malnutrition is at bay And my body functions quickly decay Memory often turns more grey Cognitive functions go astray Mental capacity goes away Body aches and nerve tazor shocks conspire And travel through my veins and joints backfire Migraines often vacation in my head A third of my days are spent in bed When laying down feet feel like stones Bruise feelings all down my bones Hair loss, depression, brain fog, fatigue Overwhelmed easily, crazy mood swings Throat always feeling like it's being choked All these medical bills I'll be forever broke Constantly tight in my neck, shoulders, and back Multiple times feel like I've had a heart attack Anxiety, body cramps, lots of migraines Hand tremors with taser-like sharp pains Sensory overload in crowds or certain light Or when there's too much much sound I'm internally in a fight Any abb movement at all times is kind of tricky Half my pains flair up when it feels a little nippy ADHD, POTS, sibo, CFS Nerve, muscle and joint weakness At times I'm paralyzed and unable to move It's a miracle I can even sing this groove My diaphragm hurts when it moves in and out Other times I start to tremor and I shake it all about Hashimoto's, RA, endometriosis Fibromyalgia is the start of my prognosis Full body paralyzation Is when I hit devastation And I can't move or speak Just a pain infestation My body's being attacked by itself A football team of specialists don't help I'm doing good all things considering But now life at best is hindering Equilibrium off balance Always running into things Ears and eyes are a challenge Often I hear rings Having CFS can be so hard to be productive Pushing my limits now means later it's deconstructive Because the more I get done now The more flare ups happen later Masking how things appear good now But the next day's down the drainer I have arthritis And can't wear any constricting clothes Too painful to sit or lay flat Need help wherever my body goes But yeah Other than that I'm doing great How are you