Lamenting to God

Doctors don't know what's happening My body's been torn at every seam When is this pain gonna end Will it ever end The church just repeats to let Jesus in As if I've just been born again And haven't looked to Him before And they just say it's spiritual And it's just demonic control But the praying and fasting And forgiving won't let it go It feels like any moment I'm gonna break Physically, mentally, spiritually break Only You can save me Pleases save me God I'm struggling God I'm struggling God I'm struggling I need You Lots of people say fake it til you make it Why can't we just all be real Always met with people telling me How to fix myself As if they really know how I'm struggling God I'm struggling God I'm struggling God I need You Why can't someone just validate That I've been brave For what I've faced Instead of picking me apart And labeling it God And I'm kinda done letting people in When I can barely stand And knocked down again Do they really know what they've done Cause God I'm struggling God I'm struggling God I'm struggling God, where are You God I'm struggling God I'm struggling God I'm struggling Where are You Does anyone actually care Or is this just a religious affair Lord why have You Been silent on me God I have done all that I can do Been on my knees Til they're black and blue It feels like You've just abandoned me And God I'm struggling God I'm struggling God I'm struggling You're child is crying for You I'm struggling God I'm struggling God I'm struggling Where are You I know the enemy is behind the scenes Cause I just want to quit on everything And my bones just feel to heavy And I've seeked You every day Why's it impossible to see Your face Why have You hidden Yourself from me And Your presence feels like miles away And I'm running low on my faith That You're working all things Out for my good God I'm struggling God I'm struggling I'm struggling I need You God I'm struggling God I'm struggling I'm struggling I need You Struggling Struggling God I need You