No One To Blame

I'll pick up meditation  For a day or two  Before I find the next obsession After a week or so  Before I start to grow I find something else to fill the void and  There's no one here to drag me out of bed  Except for all the drowning in my head Why do I pull him close just to feel nothing I'm so sick of feeling tired it seems  That reality feels like a hazy dream I put my makeup on just to look the same And there's no one to blame Walking through hell with bare feet Dining with the demons that I'll meet Didn't mind it much except for the humidity Damn  And now I strip my dignity  And blindly ask for sympathy Dear God I don't mean to be a bore It's just that I'm searching for something more There's no one here to drag me out of bed  Except for all the drowning in my head Why do I pull him close just to feel nothing I'm so sick of feeling tired it seems The reality feels like a hazy dream  I put my makeup on just to look the same And there's no one to blame  No one to blame No one to blame No one to blame No one to blame No one to blame No one to blame