I deserve every last blow

I knew it wasn't right But I did it anyway Could be a fog hazing my mind Trying to cloud my vision of me Distressing my reflection Cause who could ever love what my eyes see I know what real love feels like But it wasn't mine to have I sunk myself in deeper Trying to push my secrets down Now you'll tell me that I'm still lying I can see it on your face you despise this Never thought that we'd be losing it If I say that I'm sorry darling will you loosen The noose on my neck My skin is starting to stretch You can hang me up over the gallows But darling Don't make me hide in your shadow I tried to selfishly keep you Hiding from reality Cause you could never love me for me I might not have a second chance But I have a second chance to make my life right And I know I don't deserve grace But my heart hasn't changed My minds just medicated Now you'll tell me that I'm still lying I can see it on your face you despise this Never thought that we'd be losing it If I say that I'm sorry darling will you loosen The noose on my neck My skin is starting to stretch You can hang me up over the gallows But darling Don't make me hide in your shadow Don't make me hide in your shadow I'll take the punches that you'll throw Cause I deserve every last blow Don't make me hide in your shadow I know that we're both losing it Seems like a lifetime since we were kids I tried to maintain the status quo Don't make me hide in your shadow Don't make me hide in your shadow I'll take the punches that you'll throw Cause I deserve every last blow Don't make me hide in your shadow Don't make me hide in your shadow Don't make me hide in your shadow Now you'll tell me that I'm still lying I can see it on your face you despise this Never thought that we'd be losing it If I say that I'm sorry darling will you loosen The noose on my neck My skin is starting to stretch You can hang me up over the gallows Don't make me hide in your shadow Don't make me hide in your shadow Never thought that we'd be losing it If I say that I'm sorry darling will you loosen The noose on my neck My skin is starting to stretch You can hang me up over the gallows But darling Don't make me hide in your shadow Don't make me hide in your shadow