Jessica Tells Me

My ex came and said Amy babe Come on back to my place I looked at the bar and saw how far Ten pound won't get me So I said yeah, God bless I guess At least it's somewhere safe A bed, a place to lay my head Where the only price is sex This routine would come to gleam An inward revelation Is my worth on this green earth Weighed with the cost of oblivion Am I selling myself short or Am I getting a good deal If I don't care about myself Then does it matter how I feel Because Jessica tells me that I could be more When it's 3am and I'm crying at her door But she doesn't know a goddamn thing No she doesn't know a goddamn thing about me anymore Eleven AM I'm late again My life, a dissertation Headed for firsts if I could reimburse The drugs with dedication But I'm spinning out, I'm tripping on The culture of currency Of learning to survive and trade On comfort, momentarily Because Jessica tells me that I could be more When it's 3am and I'm crying at her door But she doesn't know a goddamn thing No she doesn't know a goddamn thing about me anymore Because you can't be better If it's the only version of you that you've seen No you can't be better If there's nothing left of you to be Well Jessica tells me that I could be more She's said it for years but it's never worked before Saying it over and over must be exhausting I don't know why she tries when there's nothing To love about me anymore