Loving Kindness

I baked bread for three weeks And you had panic attacks in your sleep I made sure you knew I'd never leave And you made sure I knew I was the worst thing To ever happen to you outside of gun violence You're a liar who lies and loves cold silence To your mother I only send loving-kindness But to you, I'll curse you until my very last breath You had your hands around my throat In a different way In a worse way I was on my knees In a different way I said I could never hate you But I was just a child Said I would never hate you but I lied I had a dream, we touched In a different way In a worse way I was on my knees again In a different way You said you would always love me But you were just a child You said you would always love me but you lied And I'd kill you if I thought that I could live with it I'd kill you if I thought that I could live with it So I'll curse your fucking soul with my whole chest And I'll still send your mother loving-kindness Loving-kindness So I'll curse your fucking name With this last record I guess But I'll still send your mother loving-kindness