the first time

For the first time I don't wanna die I leave behind the light left in my eyes That was yesterday now it's a lie Devils son i'm too young to realise Lost more leaves then my tree has left I've felt the embers won't feel the ash left I cut at the trunk till nothings left I pray tomorrow I breath my last breath I been through hell got nothing left Heavens gates where my family rest I'm so tired I need some rest Look down on me but i'm trying my best I'm trying my I'm trying my I'm trying my best But For the first time I don't wanna die I leave behind the light left in my eyes That was yesterday now it's a lie Devil called I was too young to realise I've felt the pain burning my eyes But i'll still leave the world behind I've burnt the skin from flames sky high Scars don't heal but i was too young to realise The hidden lies Your diamond eyes My crystal mind Different hyphens of a dotted line Like bullet holes in my glass timeline Bridges gone from the embers burnt I wish by now I had've learnt The pain caused by blades hurt More then myself it stains your shirt The blood I bleed is yours to hold I pray to god I don't get too old I will take what I am owed I proudly wear my green and gold But For the first time I don't wanna die I leave behind the light left in my eyes That was yesterday now it's a lie Devil called I was too young to realise I know the pain caused by leaves now gone Family tree has no limbs of old Can't dig up dirt in hopes of finding gold Fingers green from my self hatred's mold