Nothing Lasts (feat. Jok3r, Samosa & Kate Bridger)

Sometimes I just feel like I'm alone in this world Like I'm drowning in my thoughts as I'm roaming the earth I've never quite been free like I've known it since birth It's cold and it hurts, I'm alone and its worse I got a family who love me yet they can't relate These relations damn I'm grateful my heart it aches Its hard to taste, what a bitter pill to swallow I'm lying fast awake with little here but sorrow I can think of a thousand reasons why I should be happy But it doesn't seem to matter under this weight that we carry I've got all my limbs functioning and, both parents And a house to call home, man this should be tremendous I just feel they don't know the man I am inside Like the mask I hid behind as I ran from life I'm now trapped inside and I cannot find The guy I once knew who I thought I am inside, like Quitting ain't an option yet I'm thinking bout it often Promised I'd be here and never ever stopping I'm falling to the fear of my life being forgotten But nothing lasts forever, we all end up in coffins I sit down and think about the things that I've done And I realise that I've been living life as a cunt We're like toy soldiers, and the reason that is Is cause I'll end up in a box even if I have won There's plenty reasons to smile, but I ain't even got one I don't expect to be famous so I do my music for fun But I guarantee that I'll f*ck up, cause, nothing ever lasts Been writing bars from the start now I'm swimming with the sharks Getting ready on the mark, isn't a walk in the park Now I'm the monster that you're running from when I'm haunting the dark I'm always smiling so people think my life is a laugh But no one ever realised that my smile's a mask Cause if you know me then you know I don't ever look down But my pain hides behind the smile of a clown I'm in love with my music, I'm in love with my sound But my only salvation is when I'm under the ground, what Quitting ain't an option yet I'm thinking bout it often Promised I'd be here and never ever stopping I'm falling to the fear of my life being forgotten But nothing lasts forever, we all end up in coffins I watch a smile on my face, every day I'm in the limelight Need to expose myself, but only when the time's right I'm progressing, but grown wretched with no eyesight I'm stepping to the future but looking back into hindsight Family misfortunes that are taken too far Now Daddy's getting happy with his violent glance Drumming beats upon Mummy, I'm paralysed with my stance And each mark on her body led to emotional scars Now I'm feeling guilty, cause I want her pain to be mine Stress to express my stress, up on the B line Surrounded by my team all the time, may seem nice But numbness in my nerves reminds me it's still lonely at times The only way I feel I can fix this Is to be by myself in the middle of nowhere So I can break down to truly build up my health How can I love others, if I can't love my, self? Quitting ain't an option yet I'm thinking bout it often Promised I'd be here and never ever stopping I'm falling to the fear of my life being forgotten But nothing lasts forever, we all end up in coffins