Winter in St Lucia (feat. Smallz)

"Daddy was able to get a sheet of parchment paper and write a prayer on it His personal prayer, thanking God for who I am I have to walk in my divine destiny" There's no refuge for the renegades Spend a winter in St Lucia just to meditate Be back in the city in time just to levitate and elevate the grind I keep hearing it's just a matter of time Losing my mind, woah Part of me might never come back Trapped by all o these ghosts I left here in the past Bond has never been strong between me and my dad But why'd it had to take a tragedy for us to be a family again And as I struggle with that answer While you struggle with your cancer My eyes fill up when I thought about it but gotta stay composed Got a session later with Ransom Can't let em see you out of control No They never know that side of your soul I got a Lot on the go Do a lot of it on my own, sadness grown but I'm just glad to be home That's where the heart is At least I'm back to where the art is Out here in the streets, residence of the artists, some of these dudes the hardest Where niggas starving Still eat your food regardless Energy that they harness is something I needed Twin peaks like two pyramids, our very own Egypt Third eye open, I can finally see it, couldn't believe it, na This the renaissance of the real niggas You gotta build with us to deal with us There's no refuge for the renegades Spend a winter in St Lucia just to meditate Be back in the city in time just to levitate and elevate the grind I keep hearing it's just a matter of time Losing my mind, woah Losing my mind Losing my mind "Killa I so jealous there gah chooops It so freaking cold here dog Anyways doggie enjoy it Bless" Needed a break from the world I took time for myself I got a lot on mind A little writing should help Started writing a rhyme It start writing itself My homies thought it was tight I guess the feeling was right It made sense Got a new love I don't need all the fake friends now Tolerance for the bullshit ends now And if I'm being real I had people who were more than friends I did wrong I'm just tryna make amends now I'm sorry And if I say it I mean it I hate when people say it and it ain't got the meaning If you ain't gonna talk to me direct from the heart Then why you tryna talk to me from the start I ain't about it Could do without it It don't get harder than this Sometimes I feel like my heart is just as dark as my lips Woah Mom I love you but I'm still growing up So I gotta see the world cause I'm still blowing up We making moves so we still pouring up Man they music ain't a safe route It's my only way out Trina build, sure enough There's no refuge for the renegades Spend a winter in St Lucia just to meditate Be back in the city in time just to levitate and elevate the grind I keep hearing it's just a matter of time Losing my mind, woah Losing my mind Losing my mind I'm going through it with the love of my life Constant conflict with this life that I love You left a paradise to come to the cold to keep me warm Can't fathom a winter with you gone, you inspired this song But something wrong now, we ain't the only ones who can feel it Wake up to make up, we've just learnt to conceal Can't reveal it, we too deep in this together now We got too much on the go to not keep it together now Live better now Coogi sweater now, woah That in itself was taking its tole Couldn't understand it first so couldn't verse Selfishness and insecurity was making it worse Plus I'm my own worst enemy at times, gimme a moment, let this energy align New moons every blue moon Maybe this shit was too soon Maybe it's premature or maybe I needed more Maybe you need to see that yours truly was truly yours Or Maybe I'm still truly a boy But what I do know is everything that I do though And everything that I do show is everything I needed you for There's no refuge for the renegades Spend a winter in St Lucia just to meditate Be back in the city in time just to levitate and elevate the grind I keep hearing it's just a matter of time Losing my mind, woah Losing my mind Losing my mind I don't wanna leave I don't wanna let this go But maybe you were right And maybe I can't breathe So maybe we should let this go You used to tell me that A happy ending depending on where you choose to end it A happy ending depending on where you choose to end it A happy ending depending on where you choose to end it A happy ending depended on you A happy ending depending on where you choose to end it A happy ending depending on where you choose to end it A happy ending depending on where you choose to end it A happy ending depended on you