Heal Me

I don't trust nobody 'cause I don't trust myself l lose control over my actions, controlled by fearing That love is the weaker feeling when your hands and knees are tied And you're not healing Why am I not healing? I've built walls i can not break Walls made of despair I've said words I can't retake Words that lead nowhere They drive me mad at night Thoughts of the worst kind The voices that i can not fight Keep poisoning my mind I'm not the human that I once used to see, this virus sparked the worst in me Possessed by the feeling that self-destruction's the only thing keeping you company When your not healing Why am I not healing?