Dead Inside

Yo Everyday I hang around my Ex, I'm dying. I know it But hey... It's a mutual exchange Talk the day away, eat, or f*ck Who are you to be the judge? But there SHE goes pointing fingers in my face "You lying, cheating f*ck!" Ugh! I'm single... and amazed you don't see the pattern And yet, you think I'm playing games like Chutes and Ladders I rather puke a donkey's dick than to get hitched! That's not rocket science-- that's the truth of matters! And I barely make a song, 'cause we work the same job And I don't want to hear your thoughts This is not a topic for debate. As soon as this records My ears are turning off! I got problems to be solved! I'm rooted in my belief, that one day we'll be moving on My train of thought is not a ride you'd want to get aboard I can fix anything you need, not including us My care is there, but the karma's building up I got to jump. F*ck! I've lost my love at times... I See the spark has left my eyes.... My Soul is there but my heart ain't trying I'm living life, but I'm dead inside Feels like things just won't change I hope this feeling fades 'fore I hit my grave If you feel the same, just as I We're living life, but we're dead inside It's days like this I don't understand why the f*ck I'm here living reruns of problems I can't solve I'm already stressed! Masturbating to porn ain't working a bit At first, it was this verse that I spit The person addressed is hurt from this shit Meanwhile, I think of Ashleigh... I thought she was it, but I sabotaged it all between us... She was perfect as shit But she don't know it... I'm think it's just things were moving too fast I got that ass and caught feelings... Intelligent black queen I'm conditioned to white-- Conflicted inside, I hurt you And now I'm gripping this mic and not you... Oh, what a price I thought of making a pact with the dark side to get back with you Stay silent and manage the evil spirits, in tandem to making Love with you animalistically. But, you hate me And I don't think we'll be able to meet up ever And maybe that's not so bad... 'Cause you're safe from me And my silver tongue. I still remember the taste of that sweet pussy cum Mmmm... I sorry... Apologies. My soul is torn to shreds I'm Voldemort, and my diary is public to those in need Of song that's inspired to be a means of understanding You got dreams but you're hating on yourself Or regret a choice you made, and so you place it on a shelf A hall of shame. A wall you made to block the world out To protect yourself from further pain... Yea Can't say that I don't understand it That's the reason that I stroke this pen across computer paper My mind is fucked, so this ream should match it! F*ck the world! Maybe, yea! My middle finger actually Flies high in the faces of the judging masses! I'm constantly told that I sound like Mr. Mathers Is that a compliment or diss?! What the f*ck's it matter? I'm making songs for those who are all alone inside their head Overwhelmed by the noises going on inside it! Oh yea And f*ck the vines and memes... Not all of us are happy And that's the human being experience. So If you're told to smile, flip them off And turn your volume fucking loud and drown them out! 'Cause sometimes... you need a feeling this strong You feel the same? Then please sing along I've lost my love at times... I See the spark has left my eyes.... My Soul is there but my heart ain't trying I'm living life, but I'm dead inside Feels like things just won't change I hope this feeling fades 'fore I hit my grave If you feel the same, just as I We're living life, but we're dead inside I've got no love inside The spark has left my eyes No need to dive my grave 'Cause I'm alive... I'm just dead inside