Sounds In A Vacuum But A Bit Faster

I'm mad at myself I'm awoken by these sounds I'm sad by myself (I wanna cry out loud) I'm losing my own sanity Waiting for something that's scaring me right now And I feel the existential dread And the fucking desperation So don't leave me now I'm dissociating from the sound In your arms I never feel loud My whispers don't drown out the sounds So don't leave me now I hate it when I'm in the crowd I'm lost and I'll never be found I feel like I'm screaming with no one to hear me around I'm mad at myself The self sabotage is just choking me I got no air to breath It's fucking killing me I'm feeling the blood in my lungs I'm sad by myself I feel like my heart is shutting me down When I'm holding my ground I feel like I'm fading to somewhere I'll never be found