TIME CONFLICTED

Trying to find my perfect form, but I have been permitted Been walking through the better great but I feel no differences Lots of things change like all them Christmas's but the difference is Change need work like some long distance shit Friends ain't my friends They don't treat me the same Its like god brang work but it come with a little pain Now tell me what do I thank? My friends and family for sure I'm a empty whiteboard I only share what i know it's like You don't know my story only difference was Time conflicted kid, could not get a buzz Now I'm feeling like, I need a little trust Man I cut that tie months ago it was a must Been through ups and downs, but I'm still the same me Met some nice girls but, they still played me Its amazing, all the things I see Only wish I breathe, I rot my soul to mp3 It's a want but i can't She more than a friend You don't understand Can not comprehend The empty feeling gained Know I'm not okay Mentally insane Who am I to blame? It's a want but I can't She more than a friend You don't understand Can not comprehend The empty feeling gained Know I'm not okay Mentally insane Who am I to blame? It's what I get, It's what I deserve This whole route is not a curve From what I deter, the feelings from her They never would work I'm stuck up with change, feelings with hate Stuck in this place, remember I was eight New to the fate, remember my face Stuck in a chase, my mind is in that place yet I'm still going backwards, hit the brake my back hurts Flying ghost that's Caspar, need some friends how'd that work Change the shift to forward, cannot f*ck with that whore They always will want more, come now leave out that door I think I will rest now, all my work has been found Let it flow through that town, don't give a f*ck if I'm loud 'Cause if I do i will get pissed, might just fuckin reminisce Made a new song and it missed, might redeem myself I only wish I just wanna find myself, man these lyrics got me well Remember when she wished me well, remember when she wished me hell Korben called and found that gate, now i know it wasn't fate Hide for fun it was a game, I know the secrets to her place