Never Her

Never a cheerleader I'm always down Couldn't be a diva Just here in my town Wish I had that blessing But I am a curse Every time I hit that stage It's getting worse You were so nice to me But I fucked it up Coz I'm not nice to myself Never enough But if I had your blessing I'd scream in pain I'd lose my freedom It's not the same Never her Never heard Can't see myself I'm blurred Never her Never heard Feeling so absurd I'm blurred Never you Always blue Clear my view Be my truth Never you Always blue Change my view Never you Just do it for yourself And not for other people's standards So even if it's slightly similar to someone else's work They'll recognize it's you Hate my emotions A tidal wave Wanna be like you But never brave Wish I had that power Stuck in this place Don't take my copium Coz I need space You were so damn nice to me But I fucked it up Coz I'm not nice to myself Never enough Even if I had your power I'd go insane So I'm just gonna let it rain I'm gonna say goodbye To the life I thought I wanted Hard for me instead Why do we compare each other Never bother wondering how they feel Like a black hole Ferris wheel Like a bagel no one knows in this town Spinning around and never stopping Cycles are repeating I'm content With my own content Far away from people Mostly scared but now in peace Tired of getting torn into pieces I'll never be like her Can't manage the trolls Can't sleep at night Can't make a fortune Can't star on TV But at least now I can hide away Never her Never heard Can't see myself I'm blurred Never her Never heard Feeling so absurd I'm blurred Never you Always blue Clear my view Be my truth Never you Always blue Change my view Never you Remember, my dear Other people's success will never take away What you've accomplished so far in life You own your success And I'm always here for you