Wish

Man I wish I wasn't such a problem kid I wish I would've went to college on that scholarship I know I really wish a lot of shit I wish my mama dropped the black and wasn't a fiend I wish my daddy saw me run the track and play on a team Instead he work a job I wish I never have to be where you are I wish for days with no thoughts Those days I keep moving forward but then I walk into God He tell me what the f*ck you doing when you popping those pills I thought I gave you what you need to move away to the hills I go remind Him of the mountain where I fell so hard He said if I'd have prayed some more He would've took some pain off Damn Let that go and show you who I am See now you can have a plan that's like a gun without a trigger Time trickles nothing to show so words get bigger I wish that I could say the words to make my family thicker But most of all I wish I didn't have to live in your shadow They look at me and they see you It's getting harder to handle I wish that I could wish the pain away But I smoke it Got a trunk full of duct tape and razor blades Ya I own it Only pop it when I wish Park it lock it then I dip Let the police hear the bitching And that's business And I wish that I could bag me like a dime and a half I got a thousand in my pocket and I count it in cash I really wish this ain't the reason she want me I know my talk is cheap No meal I go hungry I wish I got a record deal I wish I paid off all my bills I smoke to take the pain away but the problem is still Dominant Hard to coexist Alpha hominids Sorry mama I'm a problem kid Not the opposite I wish that I could change the way we treat each other I wish I didn't feel the shame to talk about my mother But like every time I do It's a problem I feel No matter how much I keep wishing I'm the hollowest still I wish I would've known that I would end up here I wish the pain would disappear I blame the man up in the mirror Him and I are closer than appearance He the push and I'm the shove This ain't no passers interference Ugh Let that go and show you who I am See now you can have a plan But it only work if you do Ya I wish I wasn't such a problem kid I wish I wasn't such a problem kid