THAT'S HOW YOU KNOW

Isn't it crazy how much pain we will voluntarily endure in our search for love Love is pain Seriously I can't eat I can't sleep All I can do is sit here and think of her Love is pain And how I would do anything for her That's how you know you are in love That's how you know you are in love That's how you know you are in love That's how you know you are in love When you're so fucked up you can't think You can't blink you can't eat you can't drink You can't sleep no not even one wink You can't bring yourself back from the brink So much pain in my heart and my brain One part sorrow and the other part insane Why did I try to start this ridiculous campaign Trying to find love when I'm circling the drain But my thoughts remain the same I am fixated on her face and name And without her all I face is pain so no doubt I will slowly go insane By thinking of the wonderful ways that her grace and beauty once filled my days Until I fucked it all up in the stupidest ways What a mess I'm depressed and stressed at best And so I hope to make it my daily quest To smoke dope pot weed grass dabs and cess And go to that bartender and say hell yes That's how you know you are in love hell yeah give me a fucking drink That's how you know you are in love fourteen and years of sobriety down the tube I think That's how you know you are in love No but seriously if I was going to give up my sobriety for love That's how you know you are in love It would have to be a hell of a love That's how you know As I actively choose to sit up all night and lose All sleep because I cannot stop thinking of you And then I weep because I'm hoping that this shit is not true That this fight might be the end of me and you Then I'm like what the f*ck can I do to break out this stupid cycle that I keep going through Where I don't really know what is false or what is true But I over analyze and then want to argue Yeah this is when I geek out and freak out and most of my insecurities slowly start to leak out Then I try to speak but I cannot speak out Because I'm either frozen or on fire so I'm snuffed out Then my worst fears arise before my eyes and if I pay attention they will be my demise That's how you know you are in love yeah I'm acting crazy again I'm in love it's no surprise That's how you know you are in love That's how you know when you act crazy and shit That's how you know you are in love When you do things you normally wouldn't do That's how you know you are in love That's how you know When you think of love you must think of how far you would go to show you're a superstar How much praise stays on her radar and how many days does it take to raise the bar Would you buy caviar or learn to play guitar Or give her a baby and with her dad have a cigar So how can I prove that I want to move into a home that I happily share with you What would I dare to do to show I care for you And that I would always be there for you Would I keep spending money that I don't really got And do anything just to tie the knot Would I turn to crime or keep trying to rhyme or keep making pizzas for a nickel and a dime Would I struggle and strive to keep the dream alive and let go of all else to ensure we survive I would do anything to make you my queen that's how you know You know what I mean You know what I mean That's how you know you are in love When you would do anything when you would go to any length That's how you know you are in love when you would face any challenge That's how you know That's how you know you are in love That's how you know If you want to know if your love is pure then you must think what would you endure Would you sit there and take the abuse if she drank too much of the grey goose And then she starts to swing because she's doing this nightmare thing She's blacked out so you know it don't mean a thing But no doubt she can still hit and it will sting So let's just hope that she is not wearing her rings Yeah because then that shit will really sting But never fail she'll just pull out those gucci nails The little razor blades that like to leave blood trails Or impale as she slices them into me She got me real bad when we were sound asleep And I don't fight back because I know it's not purposely She's just having it out with her PTSD And now I see to protect her at all times is my j o b It's like I've had an epiphany Yes I'm in love with That's how you know you are in love That's how you know you are in love That's how you know you are in love That's how you know you are in love I am in love That's how you know you are in love I am in love That's how you know you are in love I am in love That's how you know you are in love I am in love That's how you know you are in love I am in love That's how you know you are in love I am in love That's how you know But then she leaves and she doesn't come back and it turns me into an insomniac It throws my whole system out of whack with the danger of running my train off the track Just like a bust when I'm playing blackjack I will wither away and my blood turns black And the pain I'm feeling is cardiac I fear I am dying of a heart attack I fear I am dying of a heart attack I fear I am dying of a heart attack I fear I am dying of a heart attack I fear I am dying of a heart attack That's how I feel when she has to go I feel empty from head to toe I want to bring it all back and restart the show yes I would do anything that's how you know That's how you know you are in love