Message That Never Was (Outro)

Im just hoping that I make you proud Shit Im Just hoping that looking you down on me And dont see where im fucking up Cuz I dont took alotta daughters from they families Im alittle bit addicted the drugs But they wont be the end me Cuz Only way im going out Is fighting I wont ever take myself I dont got a lot to lose right now But in the future If I lose it Imma really fucking lose it Cuz thats all I had when I had nothing If I lost my mom right now shit I dont know how I would I function Cuz honestly it feel like she’s the only one that got my back And thats even when we clash, Shit I think I should get out my box And look at life like there a bigger picture Realize right now the only moment I control So I invision better things I pray that while im on the road My fam doing good at home And thoughts that I feel when alone Dont control my mind for long Cuz Cant spiral into a depression If I go back to my old self that I once killed and bring him back Aint nobody hearing from me Cuz I gotta ugly And nobody seem to love me But I killed that side of me And thats what they dont seem understand Im preaching to the man Upstairs But getting nothing in return I Guess dont wanna be distrubed So I Walk my path Alone Work till my hands are stones Leasts the bills is paid Even lil bit late F*ck a 9-5 im tired of the slaving For nation that dont give me a f*ck about me as a person They just look at me as me as another way to make a fucking dollar Go to college work until you die that scholar rocks tho Just wanna live my life alone and get up of colorado Maybe get a crib in aspen when I can afford it So I ask myself this question and And I really endure it Am I good person or am I just narcissistic? I wanna spread the good I wanna see all us winning I wanna be hoping in benzes and see my mom flexin But most of all I really wanna win it all I want the fame and the money for a different reason I want the money for charity and all the children Who grow up with nothing different but the struggled living I wanna give the food to the ones who aint have it And bring shelter to the masses I was one that aint have it Mom was living off taxes and the food that they stamped in Want the fame to bring attention to the bigger issues Like do we really care what Kim wore and all her credentials Or the people dying cuz the wars that we started Or the children crying cuz they cannot find they fathers Or the kids that never had families that brought em Up In this world full of greed Up In this world full need Up In a world on its knees Begging please let me be But we can’t let It be See humans got 2 different instincts Its either to kill or make sure that we in sync But lately it’s different we all just been distant And up in our bag Not worried Others or worried bout taxes We put on humanity Damn that’s insane But I cant say its a tragedy Cuz people fucking stupid and they only care about themselves Aight thats it cut the track aint nobody wanna hear me talk about that Yeah they gone promise you millions of plays But really Only if you pay Thats why my shit come from the heart That way My future full of true art And making greatness Nights inside my room i write a life im busy making Musical creation