Ready for the Rain

I've forgotten what joy is, for a minute all I've known is pain So I'm posted with my umbrella ready for the rain Been on my own so I don't know who else that I could blame And when they ask me how I am I say I've forgotten what joy is, for a minute all I've known is pain Hard to keep goin' when you know that every day's the same So until the moment, I notice anything has changed I'll be posted with my umbrella ready for the rain You left me out in the cold I'm empty now that I'm alone Don't know where I am, or which way I should go Because I feel like i"m lost but know I've been here before Made it through all the snow, the hail, the rain, it never was warm No shelter to stay in I weathered the storm Can't help but say it's better indoors Last time I felt this way it was the hardest thing I've ever endured And the hardest part of loving you is that you always knew how to get under my skin Now I feel this way because of you and I just wonder who's ever gonna let me back in I'm at rock bottom, I think the root of the problem is I've forgotten what joy is, for a minute all I've known is pain So I'm posted with my umbrella ready for the rain Been on my own so I don't know who else that I could blame And when they ask me how I am I say I've forgotten what joy is, for a minute all I've known is pain Hard to keep goin' when you know that every day's the same So until the moment, I notice anything has changed I'll be posted with my umbrella ready for the rain And I hate the way that I remain conflicted My head knows better my heart just doesn't listen Love to love til love becomes addiction Can't explain it still I want you to stay But I ain't stressin' if you leave though Honestly, it's probably for the best that you let me go Can't make my life a movie if I let you be the lead role Half-court buzzer-beater I'mma treat like a free throw, I'm ballin' Shoot my shot don't even reload,no stallin' Try my luck like a casino. I'm all in There's no need to worry when I'm out here droppin' 30 But I need to drop my ego, I'm fallin' Need to drop my ego, I'm fallin' Cut me deep and let me bleed slow, aw man Cut me deep and let me bleed slow, bleed slow I've forgotten what joy is, for a minute all I've known is pain So I'm posted with my umbrella ready for the rain Been on my own so I don't know who else that I could blame And when they ask me how I am I say I've forgotten what joy is, for a minute all I've known is pain Hard to keep goin' when you know that every day's the same So until the moment, I notice anything has changed I'll be posted with my umbrella ready for the rain