Dangerous Mind, Pt. 2

I've had anger issues since I was young These days my therapy is off my thumb Going back and forth like I'm in a scrum I got so many problems suffocating numb Making suicidal jokes is it funny or real Tryna chase these thoughts but I can't deal Ready to give a blood meal really don't know how to heal A light pole looks a nice way to turn my wheel I can end it all then I won't have to conceal Breaking down crying in front of you all This me given to you raw My heart hurts my soul hurts and I am broken I feel like I might need some magic potion I can't get roped in need some motion getting so close to imploding I am my own worst opponent guess depression can be potent Look around walls just close in I'm fucked up it's worth noting My consciousness that bitch has been stolen I can't sleep can't rest I just tweak just press I can't breathe I can't bare I just seek for some air Mind race like state fare I'm goin round and round Walking through days with frowns I used to laugh like a clown Now I can't even crack a smile biting my nails I'm so hostile Being on edge is current lifestyle I been Rated R for more than a while Don't freestyle compile my thoughts waiting for the day I go on tour Way I think is so obscure being in my head is not secure From the outside looking in it looks like I am blessed Day by day I fake it when I get dressed Empty is the feeling I describe best Emotions lockdown like I'm oppressed If I catch myself smiling I wonder why I switch back to no fun guy I shouldn't be happy that's what's in my mind All I wanna do is sit back hide and cry Why are you mad all the time Why don't you take a step into my mind